Dreams,  Family

Dream a New Dream

Someone once said, you are never too old to dream a new dream, and I believe them, but just not for me. Not now, anyway. It’s not like I’m eighty or anything. But it’s not age that’s the problem. And if I said I had a wonderful husband and four wonderful children and they were the problem, I think I’d sound pretty ungrateful. I’m not. But I can’t dream a new dream when I’m responsible for fanning the flame for four little dreamers and one dreamer who stole my heart fifteen years ago. Even if my heart has wrinkled a bit.

Standing here in the pouring rain with sopping feet and what feels like a rucksack full of bricks, I feel pretty ridiculous, but ever since I locked eyes with that painting, I haven’t been able to take a step further. I want it. In my home. I want my name on it. Joules Powers. I want to dream again. But as the rain spits on my umbrella, I feel like the world is spitting on me. I might not be too old, but I’m definitely too busy. I can barely keep up with my week, let alone shoehorn my dream into it.

The woman inside the gallery smiles at me, a sort of why-don’t-you-come-in smile. My heart beats fast, and butterflies fill my stomach. I’m not sure why I feel nervous. The rain pops harder, and I slide my finger under the straps of my rucksack, trying to lift the weight off my shoulders. I smile back at her. Not today. But who knows, maybe I’ll be back here this time next year, and maybe I will step inside. I don’t know how old I’ll be when I do, but as I recall, someone once said, you are never too old to dream a new dream. One day, I might believe that it is for me.

Writer. Faith walker. Notebook collector. Coffee drinker. Coffee Drinker. Coffee Drinker. Mother of two...and counting... @BathSpaUni MA CW grad.


  • trening

    Wonderful blog! Do you have any hints for aspiring writers?

    I’m planning to start my own blog soon but I’m
    a little lost on everything. Would you suggest starting with
    a free platform like WordPress or go for a paid option? There are so many options out there that I’m totally overwhelmed ..

    Any ideas? Cheers!

    • Jemima Owen

      Thank you so much.

      I started with a free WordPress blog, but my husband’s a web developer so he’s got me on a paid theme so I don’t have any adverts – he’s very handy! The free WordPress blog is great because you can get going straight away and get used to it. And personally, it’s the written word that’s the most important thing! I hope that helps.

      Good luck!

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